What It Feels Like to Do Work That Follows My Light
It was Spring 2011. I had just graduated with my Bachelors and earned my teacher certification just earlier that year. I had moved back to my hometown area and was substitute teaching while applying for full-time jobs.
Even though on the surface it appeared that I was doing everything right, deep down in my core something felt wrong. Very very wrong.
I couldn’t quite put my finger on it at the time, but it felt like something within me was gradually dying. An old spark. An inspiration. A deep inner love.
Something wasn’t being expressed the way it needed to be in the way I was living. My environment, lifestyle, and life choices just weren’t quite in alignment with this part of me that was dying.
My “fun” times of going out to bars with friends were no longer becoming an enjoyable past time like it was in college. Instead I would often find myself totally zoning out at bars and contemplating many deep questions.
Is this all there is to life?
Is this what it’s like for people in other countries too?
What’s going on in Russia right now?
Do other people in this room ever think about these things or am I the only one?
This went on for a few months until I had reached my breaking point: I was finally offered a full-time teaching position and, rather than want it, all I wanted to do was sell all of my belongings and travel the world.
And so, in a leap of faith, I did just that. I accepted a job teaching English in South Korea and took my very first 747 across the Pacific.
By myself. With only two suitcases. And without being able to speak any Korean.
This started a long, challenging, soul-seeking journey. A journey of many conflicts and heartbreaks. A journey of tears and exploration.
It was a painful and difficult journey, but gradually, bit by bit, everything started to come together. I started feeling lighter and happier. I started painting and journaling. I started to feel connected with that inner spark once again.
And, eventually, I found myself in a stable and loving relationship and doing work that I really truly love. I’m currently working on my masters in Counseling Psychology while working as a counselor. In addition, I’m also a self and relationship coach, write regularly for my weekly blog, creating meditations (like this free one!) and have many other behind-the-scenes projects on the way.
Yes, I’m super busy but I love it. I’m doing things that truly Light me up and bring me joy. And I know deep down in my core that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.
So what does it feel like to do work that follows your Light?
#1 – It’s energizing.
All work can be exhausting at times, but when we’re really in alignment with what follows our own Light the work energizes us. It’s exciting. It’s exhilarating. Sometimes the excitement we feel in doing the work may make us so energized that all we want to do is have ourselves a little dance party.
It’s a sign that we’re awakening. We’re opening up to the love and Light we possess within. We just gotta let it flow.
#2 – You truly feel like you’re being of service.
There are those moments where you may be working with someone and, without them giving any feedback, you’ll feel like you did something that really meant a lot to them. A sense that you really gave them that listening ear, that tidbit of information that shifted their mindset, or that helping hand with something they couldn’t have done on their own. There’s a sense of the heart-opening and you’ll simply just know that you have genuinely given out of love and Light.
#3 – You feel grounded in your being.
Many people doing spiritual work can forget about this, but I have found it very important. Never have I ever felt truly in alignment with my own Light if I were not grounded in my actions.
This has come by really focusing on being present and fully engaged with all that I’m doing — being present with each person I work with, being present while I’m writing, being present with my boyfriend when we’re watching a movie and even being present while I’m cooking or watering plants.
Being grounded in the present moment is the catalyst for miracles. It is the basis for living a life filled with joy, love, and Light.
Now it’s your turn. It’s time to tune in to your Light. Are you ready?
Jennifer Twardowski is the founder of Jennifertwardowski.com. Here, she helps women improve their relationships with both themselves and others, both personally and professionally, so that they can create lives filled with joy, love, and support. Jennifer has been featured in Cosmopolitan magazine, The Huffington Post, MindBodyGreen, BeliefNet, TinyBuddha, YourTango, Elephant Journal, and more. Click here for her FREE Self and Relationship Healing Meditation.